Oh please just shoot me now…
Well, it’s been a while and from the lack of posts you’ve probably come to realize that things haven’t been going as swimmingly as I would have liked. I don’t know what I keep expecting to happen, but in a month I’ve lost a total of .6 pounds. How badly does that suck?! I try my hardest during the week and the weekends become my undoing. I can’t seem to grab hold of enough willpower to just not eat… when I’m bored, when I’m sad, when I’m angry. And this past week I’ve been craving chocolate like a mofo. It’s insane.
I try my best to stay within my points. I’m usually up around 30-32 points a day with my daily at 26. I’m not close and this past weigh in I skipped. You heard me. I skipped like a chicken-shit I am. I knew I’d gone up and I just didn’t want to face the happy people getting their stars, keychains and cudos for doing so well.
I’m happy for them - but at the same time because I’m having a hell of a time, it’s depressing me. I’ve been doing this for 2 years for crying out loud and I’m now back where I was before I got married in 2006.
Hellooooo… motivation…. where are you?
That’s the problem - my body and me… we have a constant fight about what I’m putting in my body. I’ve decided to take control - and learn to eat better, healthier alternatives, and maybe just a little less of the sweet stuff that I soooo much desire (are you listening Chocolate!).