I just want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and all the best for the New Year!

I’m not sure how well I’m going to stick to my losing weight.  I’m thinking the New Year is looking awefully appealing to start fresh!  Too much temptation … LOL.

Writing here will be a bit light until the New Year.  I just want to say thanks to everyone who comments here, to everyone who reads my blog.  It really does mean so much to me to know that I’m not alone in the ever present weight loss struggle.

Thank you!  … and see you all in the New Year!!!!

Weight: 198.4 - :: loss ::

Since starting, I’ve lost a little bit everyday.  It takes me back to the first week I started weight watchers and when I lost big the first week… then it balanced out.  Not that I mind the jumpstart.  It sure helps keep me motivated!  But I can’t help but worry.

With Christmas just a few days away… I’ve got a Christmas lunch and Christmas supper to attend.  No one is going to be forcing me to eat badly, quite the contrary.  But the goodies will be there.  I know I have to wind up the will-power.  So I’m going to deal with it this way.

• If there is something I want.  I’ll have it.
• I will limit my quantity.
• I’m not going to eat everything in sight.
• I will enjoy myself.

A simple little list.  But I’m not going to deny myself… I’m just not going to have tons of it.  If there are my “red flag” foods (like fruit cake)  I’m going to try to avoid all together, if my willpower fails me - I’m going to enjoy it.  I’m just not going to keep eating and eating.  Have one… move on.  Drink lots.  Maybe that will help.

Weight: 199.6 - :: loss ::

It’s been a bit quite around here for the past couple of days… only because on the 20th I started Weight Watchers again. I’ve talked to you about me feeling like crap, and I totally did.  It sucked.  I hit bottom.  My pants were too tight, my tummy hang over the top - and no top in my closet fit me properly.  It was terrible.  I felt that it would be so very easy for me to go back to what I was.

I was honestly tired of feeling like my weight loss was a fight.  I had stopped fighting.  I started gaining instead.

Maybe subconsciously I gave up and ate whatever I wanted just to get it out of my system.  If I wanted chips and dip, I’d have chips and dip.  Chocolate… bring it on.  Snacks at work… oh baby.  I’d load up.

But binging on the Christmas goodness… I really never lost the guilt.  As much as I tried to stuff it’s mouth with christmas foodie goodness.  It never really went away.  The fact that I felt terrible on top of that….

I had to start again.

So I did on December 20th.

It’s harder than hell doing it right now.  So close to Christmas.  So much temptation.  So I’m not totally avoiding.  I’m just trying very hard not to go overboard.  And where I can, I’m avoiding it.  So far it seems to be working.  I’ve also come to the realization that Christmas comes EVERY year, so I might as well suck it up and start somewhere.

… wish me luck!