Weight: - 198.0 - :: loss ::

With the way the weather has been here, I didn’t really want to risk driving on the icy roads so I didn’t end up going to weigh in.  So basically I just let myself go.  I had a cinnamon bun, dessert squares, chips and dip and chocolate chips… good god, when I let go - I let go.

It’s almost like I end up binging.

Which in a way leaves me disappointed in myself… but it’s weird.  I don’t feel terrible.  Currently my gut is hanging over my pants - I feel BLOATED!  But really other than that… I just don’t care.

Tomorrow is a different day.

I seem to be having more of these days - days of release from the numbers.  LOL.  But like I said, tomorrow is a new day and I’ll be back on the bike, working at my 10 minutes of biking and if the roads are as crap as they are now tomorrow - I’ll be doing a couple of sets of 10 minutes.  I should really start to up my biking time.  Because 10 minutes alone isn’t enough - at least I don’t think it is, my legs burn (in that good … oh my god I’m exercising sort of way)… and I do huff and puff when I’m done.  I’m also down to stopping only twice in my ten minutes, down from three.  Which is an improvement?  Right?  LOL.  But if I can do 2 10 minute cycles a day… that’s 20 minutes and that’s a good thing.

At least I think so

Weight: - 198.2 - :: gain ::

You know, today I was really good and then tonight I just had a food meltdown.  I ate way too much dessert… LOL.  Too many squares (I’ve got to freeze those!) and I had chips and dip - I don’t think I’ve had that since I started Weight Watchers… But I did tonight.  I just let go.

I think it had to do with me just craving crap… and the fact that I’m not going to weigh in tomorrow. Why?  Because of the snow storms we’ve been having here lately - the roads are terrible and so I’m not going to the meeting.  The road would be hell.  So I’m going to work it like a maniac for next week’s official weigh in.

I don’t feel good about pigging out… but right now I don’t feel all that bad.  It was almost like letting the steam out - no more build up of “I wants” and “denile”… which wasn’t really the point of Weight Watchers - you can eat whatever you want within moderation… but I just felt like eating.

:)  So tomorrow is a new day… and I’ll be taking up the challenge for this week.

Weight: - 197.8 - :: gain ::

I’m not sure if I was inspired… or just felt after my weigh in yesterday that I should do more?  Or maybe it was the whole - I had so much sushi for lunch that I honestly thought I’d explode!

Last night for supper I had a veggie burger, some more french fries (hubby bought them at the store)… and a glass of milk.  I also had 2 slices of fruit cake (not big ones but 2 slices)… and that was it.

So I’m off to weigh in and I hope 2 walks and 10 minutes on the bike put a dent in what I ate yesterday.

This is just not going well, and I’m sure I’ll be owing up for a new recipe book for my friend at Weight Watchers.

So I’m off to weigh in….

[insert crying here]

DAMN it.

I’ve got to stick with the walking/biking and cut down on the food intake.  Even though I’ve not gone over my 35 points for the week, the extras is totally kicking my ass.  Because I don’t think I’ve done enough biking to chalk up the weight to muscle gain.

Shit.