Weight: 197.2 pounds - :: gain ::

POINTS FOR THE DAY: -/24
VITAMINS: -
EXERCISE: -

Is it here that I start weeping.

Yesterday was a bit dis-jointed as far as meal times went. I had gone out to get my hair done and didn’t get back till around 9 last night. Then I had my supper… on slice of homemade pizza and some salad. I was really good all day… so I’m not really sure why the huge gain.

Time of the month perhaps?

It’s a bit dis-heartening, when I’ve been trying to be good… come UNDER my points for the day and I’ve gained, not a little… but a pound. UGH.

I’ve decided that I’ve GOT TO UP THE EXERCISE so I’m going to try going to bed earlier and get up and go for a walk in the mornings… early. Not a morning person, so I’m hoping the going to bed thing works and I feel rested enough to do it. I figure upping things to 2 walks a day and then putting in some weight training for my arms (I’ve got some dumbbells here… collecting dust… so I might as well use them!).

This is just getting harder. I know that I really shouldn’t be weighing in everyday and that the body does fluctuate, but I need to personally be accountable and I know things bob up and down…. I just wish the trend was more down… than up

Today I need to drink more water!

Weight: 196.0 pounds - :: loss ::

POINTS FOR THE DAY: 22/24
VITAMINS: None
EXERCISE: 20 Minute walk

What happened to me last night.

I went to Weight Watchers and weighed in. I gained .8 pounds. Not really surprising since this past week I’d been over my points and my only real form of excercise has been walk… nothing more.

Now the meeting was fabulous - I’m really lucky to have a great leader. Very motivating - very realisitic. Totally recommend that people actually stay at the meetings! But during the start or the meeting we always get the Stickers, Magnets, and Charms. Which is totally great celebrating what everyone has accomplished. But it also made me realize how slow (almost backwards) I’m going. There are people there who have passed the 25 pound mark - who started with me. Who started much later than me. It was a bit depressing for me.

I know I should judge my progress with others - but crap. It really sucks to know that I’m not putting enough effort in. And that’s just it. I don’t follow along the points perfectly - going way over all the time. I just can’t do that if I want to see the results…

I need to find more to do, walking is great - but I need to start saving for one of these, rather than just talking about how cool it would be to have one. This way I can exercise… whenever. That would be great. I am going to start saving with my next paycheque. How’s that!!

Anyway… this week - stick to the points. Up the exercise - meaning I’ll be walking faster… making myself breathe harder. Work - it - girl.

… and also work on my emotional eating thing. After getting out of the meeting I wasn’t feeling the greatest emotionally. I went to McDonalds and had a QuarterPounder, Fries, 6 Chicken Nuggets, dipping sauce and a Hot Apple Pie…. with a diet coke (more because I like the taste of diet over regular coke). This is what I did. I scarfed down the whole lot when I got home. I was done in maybe 10 minutes.

I didn’t feel any better…

So that really has to stop.

Weight: 196.8 - :: gain ::
DAMN IT.

I’m a bit depressed. Not much to say about that one.

I think I’m going to have to up the exercise and really try to stay within my points this week and see what happens.