I don’t know why…. but I’m eating and eating and EATING.  It’s like I’ve got a really empty set of legs and I’m looking to fill them.

I hate this.

I’ve been trying to make “smarter” choices when I am so ravenous - but I’m still going WAY over my points for the day.  I think,

“Ok, I’ll start again tomorrow”

Get back on the wagon.  But I’ve been saying that - since Tuesday.  I’m just having one of those week’s I think.  It’s just so frustrating.

This week I’ve found that I can “tolerate” cottage cheese - they’ve got some nice cottage cheese with fruit mixed in.  It’s not so bad - high in protein, which keeps me mostly full till noon (I have it for breakfast).  I’m thinking I might just buy some cottage cheese and take a couple to work - so I can eat it throughout the day.  And keep my points down and me feeling a bit more full than I usually am.  I don’t know what it is this week… I’m just hungry for carbs.  Lots of carbs.  Carbs, carbs, carbs…. chocolate.  LOL.

So after a week of cafeteria food… and just being plain stressed I did manage to pull off a .4 loss.  I will freakin’ take it please and thank you!  I got my 16 week  charm for being one of those women who actually go to the weekly weigh ins.  It was nice, I like those little gestures -  keeps me motivated :)  which can be so difficult at times.

Ugh.

Right now I’m feeling bloated and just plain crappy (thank you Auntie Rose for paying me a freakin’ visit).  I’m nervous now because it’s gotten earlier and earlier in the month and my wedding is in the middle of the month - because I’d planned it that way … because nothing had changed for me period wise for like EVER… but no, as fate would have it - it is now creeping backwards… and right in time for the wedding.  AAAAAH.  Maybe I’ll luck out and it will be earlier and all will be good (fingers crossed).

God, I’m good at the whole over sharing thing aren’t I.

LOL.

Anyway… .4 of a pound off and its a new week and I’ll be trying to kick the weight loss in the ass and look forward to a 1 pound loss :)  I’m keeping positive right!

This past week’s weigh in didn’t happen. Had a major family emergency and I’ve just got back from the Big City where there was a week’s stay in hospital (not me, but a family member). Things are better now and I’m hoping that all goes well, and I’ll be weighing in this week.

I can only think that this isn’t going to be too super - because I ate mostly cafeteria food… and while I tried to fit in the fruits and veggies… it didn’t go so well - too much fried stuff. Yuck. Totally tired of it. So that’s probably a very good thing… to be sick of grease!

I’ve also come to realize that I deal with stress - by eating.  I am a total emotional eater.

I’m hoping I’ve just maintained for the past two weeks. *fingers crossed!*