Tomorrow it all starts… or rather - it all stops. I’m looking forward to eating healthy, feeling better about myself and working on making myself a little smaller.
Tomorrow… pilates. *deep breath*
… HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 
I’m really trying to psych myself up for Sunday. It’s the beginning of the new me. I’m really trying to get the mindset - work out how I’m going to make it work with my schedule - just get excited about starting fresh for 2006.
- Do Pilates 3 times a week (in the morning before everyone’s up).
- Continue doing a 20 minute walk 4-5 times a week.
- Eat between 45-60 grams carbohydrates/per meal.
- Snack between 15-30 grams carbohydrates.
- Eat more fruits and vegetables.
So there it is. I fully expect the Pilates to kick my ass for at least a month. I don’t remember the last time I took a class or did a video on exercise - so I’m COMPLETELY out of shape. But I have to get the mindset that this is good for me - the hurt will be good for me.
I just don’t do the whole pain thing well… but I really want to lose the weight - I have an inital long-term goal of being lighter than I am now because I’m getting married!!!!! and I want to be thinner for that. It’s my motivator for now. It’s a great motivator too - because I currently hate the way I look in photos… 
I would like to say Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays to you all and I hope that this season brings you happiness and joy with friends and family!
Well, here is where I have to say something charming and witty about myself… and quite honestly right now…. I haven’t really much to say. I am a fat woman - who needs to lose some weight. How much weight you say? It would be a whopping 60 pounds. It really doesn’t seem so bad - does it. I carry it quite well That’s the problem - my body and me… we have a constant fight about what I’m putting in my body. I’ve decided to take control - and learn to eat better, healthier alternatives, and maybe just a little less of the sweet stuff that I soooo much desire (are you listening Chocolate!).
I am in my early 30’s and I have one child. I would like to be more active in my child’s life and I feel that my weight really holds me back. I just don’t have the stamina to go running and jumping and all that fun stuff with my child. I don’t want to be the Mom who sits on the sideline - I want to be apart of it all. So that’s just one reason why I’m kicking myself in the butt to get this party started and lose some weight.
I would like this online journal of sorts to be my motivator - that I have to be honest with myself and the whole darn Inter-webby-thinger-ma-jig… that I’m posting to. I just want to be thinner… healthier… and be able to go to any damn store in the mall and go to the racks and put something on - and it will fit. It’s been over a decade since I’ve been able to do that - a FREAKIN’ DECADE. Not through anyone’s fault but my own, so I’m going to be more proactive, more responsible to myself… and keep repeating that until I believe it. *haha*
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… The Fat Chick